Tuesday, September 12, 2006

The next day

Is it over yet?
Can I look?

Yesterday I found that I (like many) had 9-11 overload. I didn't want to post anything about it because I am trying to live without as much fear and worry and feel the need to remember but not dwell, but then I felt guilty to post about something else.... so, I posted nothing. Not exactly the epitome of moving forward.

As the day went on, I avoided the blogs and news sites. I buried my head into work and planning. And soon I forgot.

During my drive to work I had noticed that there was an overpass over the freeway that had about 40 flags on it. When I was driving home, the number of flags had at least doubled and there were many people walking back and forth carrying flags and banners. I admit, I made a comment that I thought those people are taking things a little too far, and thought that they were just doing it to go along with the crowd. But then a few overpasses later, there was just one lone woman waving a flag, and I felt bad for her. Here is this woman, wanting to express her love for her country and to remember, and she's all alone.

I felt bad. I felt like I had lost perspective and had become cynical. I lost the appreciation to live with the freedoms we are given in this country. We are lucky.

So today, I remember.

6 comments:

Ally Bean said...

I received an email from a friend saying that everyone should put out an American flag in front of their house on Monday. I was the only one on the street to do it.

My point is, I don't think anyone really knows how to show the proper respect for the victims yet. We're all new to this kind of grief.

J said...

I think it's easy to get cynical at times like these, when the newspaper reports SO MUCH about that time, about "where were you when they fell", that kind of thing. It's too much. I'm glad I was at a training, away from my computer, yesterday. Yes, we should all remember. God, how much I would love to forget the images of that day. We each cope in our own way. Flag or no flag, post or no post, the important thing is to think a bit of the people who died, and those who have died since then, and where do we go from here.

You're fine. ;)

Py Korry said...

After I wrote my long-ass post, I too felt the 9/11 overload -- and I wrote most of it the night before! I don't think there's anything wrong with your reaction yesterday. I'm sure many feel many of the same feelings.

laluna said...

Yeah, overload. I respect the honoring of the 9/11 victims. But I think yesterday they OD the public with the amount of media play.

Gina said...

It's hard to know what to feel about 9/11 because while I feel we need to remember the memory of those lost, we also as a nation need to get on with the things that need to be done to avoid another similar incident. Which hasn't happened yet, so sometimes I wonder just how much we want to honor the fallen.

Oy, I'm getting political here.

Hey, the prez did it, so why can't I? ;)

ML said...

I chose not to post anything on 9-11 either. I felt the need to deal with it privately and stay away from all the media mash.