Every weekend, when I am mentally able, I have a goal to go through stuff that shockingly, moved with us from CA, and most of this I haven’t touched since we moved. Perhaps some of it moved with us a few times over the last 20 years.
I haven’t let us move in to our new home. Not really.
I set up the kids rooms, but have just been getting by everywhere else. It’s not great to live like this.
It’s been 2 years. It’s time.
Thank you things. I needed you at one time, and now I don’t. A lot of these things are past their dates and I still have guilt throwing them away. Somethings could find new homes, but I just can’t, not everything. I’m sorry Mother Earth.
I will keep needing to remind myself that it’s ok to let these things go. That they are causing me more worry and effort than the benefit that they might bring maybe, someday.
It has taken me 4 hours to go through a small container of stuff that I mostly threw out. All bathroom type stuff I haven’t looked at since we moved 2 years ago. Mostly expired. And mostly items purchased 5-20 years ago. It took me so long because I had to go through it all multiple times. Had to convince my it was ok to let things go. That I didn’t need to keep any of this for those just in case moments.
It is a physical manifestation that shows me I am wasting money.
It is a physical manifestation of the mess in my brain.
My brain is full. And it’s chaotic and I can’t be the best I can be anymore and I am NOT living up to the standards I hold myself to.
So it’s time.
It’s time to be better.
It’s time to do something to remove the clutter from my brain, from my worry, all of it is a drain on me and I want to be better for me. For Eric. For my kids. For my friends. For my family. For my co-workers.
Thank you and goodbye wedding day lip liner and blush.
Thank you and goodbye old toddler Boogie wipes.
Thank you and goodbye really old ovulation tests.
Thank you and goodbye broken shower caddy.
Thank you and goodbye the leave in conditioner spray bottle that always sprayed really nicely for the last 20+ years so I just kept refilling it with watered down conditioner, but I couldn’t find since we moved and I haven’t really missed, so I probably don’t need it.
Thank you to all of the things that I have kept around and made me feel less wasteful if I could save it to use someday.
